Sunday, May 25, 2008

Between the wanting and the being everything, everything is so much lovelier contained

On Wednesday Terami Hirsch performed at Austin Java to a small but very appreciative group of people. I was very fortunate to be able to meet her and chat briefly before and after the show. Terami had contributed original music to our show Transformations back in February, and so four of the people involved in that show came to see her perform. In between her set and the opening performer, Jennifer Grassman (who was also very good), we sat and talked with Jennifer and her husband while waiting for Terami to begin. Austin Java's performance space is a small stage outside under an overhang, and Wednesday was borderline-stormy so lots of dark skies, thunder, and wind ripping through the small space. Terami was fantastic, and in case you don't believe me Travis posted a video of her performing "What I Didn't See," and in the middle of sitting in one of my favorite places to eat in Austin, with the storm looming over us, talking with really cool people and new friends, it was one of those times when life just seems so perfect and I can't imagine why I would want my life any other way than how it is. Except, of course, I would like to be designing full time. Except for that.

In three weeks we get married. I think this is supposed to be the part where I freak out, but I have not really had much of a need to freak out for this entire process. I really am excited, and nervous, and anxious that nobody will have a good time (because that's the typical thought process in my head) but no part of this has really made me worried. My dress isn't finished and I'm totally fine with that. We video-chatted yesterday with Keating, who is performing our ceremony, and I think he's more nervous than either of us. The only really bad thing that is stressing me out right now is that my new shoes (Chacos) gave me blisters yesterday on a walk from home to the coffee shop down the street, and so that doesn't bode well for the hiking we're doing in Costa Rica. They weren't kidding at REI when they told me these were shoes that required gradual breaking in. Also, I think I need to figure out a way to incorporate pumice stone into the soles of my shoes. I have the world's worst calluses and they actually literally shred through the bottoms & sides of my shoes.

Renee and I have pushed our First Night brainstorming to post-wedding, giving her more breathing space for the upcoming KDH show. Mary Todd continues to move forward and evolve. And it looks like I'll be designing in Ft. Worth this October, lighting Trash Anthems for Firestarter Productions.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

I've been thinking flowers, maybe daisies, might relieve the gloom

1. Today I became convinced that I am involved in the weirdest project ever created (that would be the Mary Todd project). I love it, it's fascinating, but still, weird as hell. And it's making me watch Quay brothers films. Not because the project has anything to do with them, but because that's where it's sending my mind.

2. Ideas for the possible First Night installation are starting to form and Renee and I meet next weekend to talk about it. I have another installation that I want to start, but it will take a year of collecting plastic bags before I can really work on it, and where am I supposed to put those in the meantime? Our apartment is small. "Omission" is slowly moving a few steps forward.

3. I think the new Portishead album is probably the best thing to happen to me this week. I didn't think so at first because I was listening to it in my OCD way of listening to music on I-tunes (in the "not yet rated" playlist, I play all the songs alphabetically and rate them as I listen - this is not the best way to listen to Portishead). Once I stopped doing that and listened to the whole album, beginning to end, I remembered why I like them. In other news...I still don't like Bjork.

4. I need to sit down and start working on my bridesmaids' gifts. Because if I don't, it's going to end up like Chrissie & Drew's wedding present...three months of oh-no-I'll-make-that-later, followed by buying something off their registry.

5. 23 hours and 11 minutes until LOST.

Notes from Dublin: Rambling, Emotional, Barely Coherent.

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